不再压抑

真的不想再压抑自己的情绪了！！
当我看了建恺在班上Blog留的Post后... 我崩溃了... 不能也不想再压抑自己的情绪了 ！

最近，个人觉得生活很无聊，毫无趣噢~ 就算有功课也再也提不起劲去完成了。就算自己才将近十八岁，自己也会觉得自己霎时间老了很多。一些看似成熟，实为幼稚的想法频频浮现在我脑海里...

最近，当自己与高一的朋友，初三的执委或初二的会员沟通时，我都会觉得自己‘切’不进他们的话题里。真的搞不懂是自己开始想享受独自的生活？可是自己是那种不与人交谈就会死的人... 还是说，我与他们真的出现了代沟？（Err~ 我不知道，我不知道。）

最近，经常 imbas kembali 以前跟‘狗’友（DoGGeRs）在一起所说过的‘狗’话，一起去Wet所经历的事件，在考试周所做过的事等。Whoa~ 爽极了！这时，自己才发现自己与此同时也错过了许多的东西。建恺的Post正说出了我最近的一部分心情。时间过了走了，很多事情也面临选择。剩下的时间真不足以让我把遗憾给删除掉！

最近，DoGGeRs 好像在玩‘单飞’，一个有了~（Long story... ），另一个则有了另外一个gang； 一个开始有了‘目标’，一个则开始发奋 ... DoGGeRs, Don't Left ME Alone !!! I don't want to stay behind (as a defender...) !!! I promised I will look for my future too !!!
But, can you guys truly open your heart and share your thought with me? Don't just speak out the topic you want to talk but aren't going to share your thought with me unless I shared mine with you 1st. When I thought that I have share certain secrets of mine with you, can you truly share yours with me? It is not fair for me as I shared mine but you aren't going to share yours. Maybe you might have reasons not to say... but can you be fair enough to me? When i did shared my thought with you, you just gave me a rubbish opinion for not telling me yours, which made my heart broken: "You might not telling the truth!" At that moment, I can't believed that 'liar' is what you only saw beneath my soul after sharing all my true personal thought with you all !

"Believe half what you see, Believe half what you heard." I hated this quote now! This quote has ultimately destroyed one's trustworthy. Maybe they like to fake their personalities, their happiness, their smile... BUT I DON'T !! I strongly hated the word 'FAKE' !

Our gang, united by a forgotten history and a future I hope we can go through together. I am Yuming, and I publish this post so that our past will always be remembered. For in those memories, Viva DoGGeRs ~